I've been on pause, lately, when it comes to my painting. I have 3 blank canvas up on my easels and 1 incomplete painting on a table. And............................................NOTHING's happening.
The 1 in the works isn't moving and the empties are showing nothing.
I have one large canvas that I must finish before the 3rd week of this month for an upcoming wedding. Today, I looked at it. And, felt uninterested.
Why does this happen? This lapse in creative focus? I have had lots of times before when I was diverted by some other form of creativity....the kind where I'm gardening or sewing or teaching. But, right now, I'm not doing any of those things.
In fact, it took me a while of sitting on the floor, staring at the blank canvas before I figured it out.
........................ I'm MANIFESTING.
All of my current creative forces are in the process of manifesting for me a job that meets my needs. My 1st interview was last week. I had such lovely positive energy from so many folks. My second interview is Monday. My juicy creative passion is very focused on manifesting a full-time job that I will enjoy for myself, with benefits to take care of the few nagging health issues that I've been having (no need for concern -- they're more annoying than anything else). And, some dental things that could use some preventative function are in my mind, also.
Sometimes, I envision what I want through my painting. This time, I am focused on my inner vision rather than anything external.
I don't have to paint every waking moment. I don't need to paint every day, or every week, or even every month. But, after a bit of focus on other things, the painter inside me beckons me back. My muse is gentle at first. But, swiftly, she becomes a screaming banshee, demanding my attention, a brush in my hand and paint under my nails. I abide her.
So, for now, I'll just breathe within my break. The muse will come again. And, she's likely to be as wickedly domineering as usual. I will enjoy the pause.